Friday, December 31, 2010

Wonderful 2010.....Greater 2011!

In a few hours lagi, dah bye-bye 2010, welcome 2011. Meaning that, there's a lot of things in the to-do list. I dah taknak buat new year resolution sbb dah tau sgt pe nak jadi. So, just ade to-do list (tak same ke?). Ok la, first of all, tahniah lagi kat Khairul Fahmi sbb dia ramai plak yg tgk blog ni sbb ade muka dia. Tumpang publisiti cket ye.

Ok la, back to the to do list. First, yang wajib diselesaikan ialah proposal, questionnaires and research analysis, siapkan thesis by the end of 2011 sbb nak konvo ujung tahun 2012. Nak tak nak, it's a must la kan. Next, duit utk pergi bersuka ria di Korea kena dah ada sbb finally nak beli tiket flight and wat passport! Yes! Can't wait for that.

Tadi tgk Oprah, ada cita pasal sorang wanita ni dari negara Zimbabwe, tak dapat nak belajar tapi tak give up and finally tak lama lagi dah nak dapat PhD. Aku? Orang bagi peluang, tak reti la nak gunakan elok-elok, main-main. Selalu aku rasa research ni satu beban, sambung belajar pun susah bukan sebab apa, tapi M.A.L.A.S! Penyakit ni memang deadly btol. Mau leh give up kalo layan lebih-lebih. So, disebabkan peluang yang ada ni jadi aku bertekad (semangat nih!) akan terus belajar sampai ke peringkat paling tinggi. That means bila dah abis my Masters degree ni, sambung lagi untuk PhD. I dah tak kesah dah kalo lambat kahwin ke, tak kahwin ke sbb bnda tu semua kan mmg dah ditentukan. Yang penting, kita sebagai manusia ni kena ambil peluang yang ada and guna sepenuhnya.

Setiap benda yang kita buat ada kesusahannya tersendiri, terpulang kita jugak cam mana nak handle. If you believe in yourself, you'll always win. We human, never know what we can do as we always stop ourselves from achieving greater things in life.

I want to do this thing because of me, myself. I believe that I can do it and I'm the best. To you also, the reader, do believe in yourself. You don't need a miracle because you yourself are magic!
Have a nice year ahead and let's work hard to make our wishes and dreams come true! Owh, one more thing, that means I'm 23 next year. Although I hate being older day by day but I love the number 23! Yes, goodbye girl, hello matured woman.

I have a wonderful 2010. How about you?
I look forward to more wonderful things in 2011!

Thursday, December 30, 2010


First of all, macam rakyat Malaysia yang lain, aku nak wish congratulations utk team bola sepak kita. Memang fantastik abis game korang! Patut la tetiba si Khairul Fahmi tu femes overnight. Dulu minat Christiano Ronaldo, tapi sekarang dah tak pandang sebab kempen beli barangan Malaysia, jadi I decide pilih Khairul Fahmi plak. (Khairul tu barang ke? Ehehe....alasan je tu). Ok2, sebelum ada orang marah, baik kita clearkan situasi ni ok? 'I' yang dimaksudkan tu bukan la saya ye, tetapi fenomena yang melanda banyak gadis2 remaja (remaja ke?) sekarang ni. Takde dah gambor Brad Pitt kat dinding, beli paper tampal muka si Khairul tu byk2. Pastu ckp kat mak, "Mak, ni gambor menantu mak!". Pastu kena pelangkung sbb gatal. Haha. Ok. Tak boleh salahkan dorang jugak. Memang si Khairul tu penyelamat team kita. So, terima je la ok. Yang lain pun hebat gak, kalau takde yang lain, tak menang la jugak kan. Pape pun, tahniah Malaysia! Good games....

Pujaan Malaya ni!

Jangan time ni je korang puji melambung2, bila kalah kutuk abis-abis. Kita kena continue support team sendiri, jangan time down, korang pun ikot downkan dorang. Jangan time ni je ngaku rakyat Malaysia. Renung-renungkan la ok? Isu Indonesia tu pulak, no comment la kan. Kadang2 memang ada orang yang obses, biasa la kan. Yang penting, tak payah la nak gaduh2, kita kan jiran. Yang penting, semangat kesukanan tu!

p/s: Khairul 21, aku 22.....patut la terasa dah tua diri ni! Byk pulak manusia yg lagi muda dari aku! Nasib la aku tak minat yang muda, kalo tak, bleh jadi pujaan hati gak ni.

Monday, December 20, 2010


The last person to hurt you apologizes, do you accept?
Yes, why not. People are not perfect, we apologizes and move on with life.

Last person you kissed calls you, what do you say?
Never been in this situation really.

Do you pass out at the sight of blood?
Nope, why should I be.

Is there anyone you couldn’t live without?
My family and friends. Typical answer. I know.

What are you planning on doing after this?
Going to the office asking for confirmation on thesis submission date. And secret recipe!

Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes. I'm young and hot-blooded you know.

Will tomorrow be better than today?
I always wish it is.

Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
I'm not sure if we can be consider as best friend.

What is worse, physical or emotional pain?
Emotional pain of course. You'll never know when it's gonna heal.

When’s the last time you had a real smile on your face?
Just now.

Whose car were you in last?
My housemate. I drove it to the faculty as she's not confident on driving it during rain.

How long is your hair?
Somewhere in the middle.

Last movie you watched?
Lemony Snickett Series of Unfortunate Events. So last season. I know. I'm bored.

Who were you with?
Erin, my housemate and the owner of the car.

Last thing you drank?
Plain water. Good for health.

Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
Nichkhun and Taecyeon of 2PM of course! Those boys are hot!

Have you ever seen a dead body?
I can't really remember. Maybe.

How long do you think you will live?
If I know, I wouldn't be answering this.

Person you want to talk to?
My ehem.....we're history. But I've a lot to say to him.

What was the first thing you did this morning?
Take a bath.

The color of carpet in your bedroom?
Background is green with a picture of cartoon car garage.

Last person you went out to dinner with?
Eza and Mai.

Are you spoiled?
no. not really.

Do you drink lots of water?

How do you vent your anger?
Yelling and throw stuff away. Typical movie things.

Who was the last compliment you received from?
Eza. She compliment everybody a lot.

When was the last time you threw up?
I don't remember.

What theme does your room have?
Purple. I made my mum choose it.

Are you a mama’s child or a daddy’s child?
Both. I can't really choose between them.

Would you ever join the military?
Nope. Not interested in army either.

The last website you visited?
UiTM library portal for journal I supposed to read.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
My family. On my graduation day.

Last person you went to the movies with?
Atip kot.

Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
Forward a week. I'll be home. But at that time, I wanna go back a week so I stayed with my family.

What are you looking forward to right now?
Be home!

Is it hard for you to get over someone?
Yup. I still remember every single thing about us. It's pathetic.

Do you get along with boys?
Depends on what types of boys do you means.

Do you think you’ve changed over the past year?
Maybe not. I never really thought that I could change. I'm as lazy as ever!

How many chances do you tend to give people before enough is enough?
Never think about that one.

How late were you up last night?
1.20 am.

Do you believe in love?

Did you kiss or hug anyone at all today?

Song you wanna live in?
I don't know. Something with boy who loves you and have happy ending. I guess.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Mrs. Wanie? Maybe not yet....

I want to get married jugak, boleh tak mak?

Haih, looking at pictures of girls my age, exactly my age get married is somewhat makes me think that I'm a spinster. Owh god! That's bad. And I'm just 22. Not 32. I'm jealous. Seriously!

I know people said that getting married is hard work. Responsibilities. Endless fighting. Cooking. Babysitting (husband, I mean....). Nagging. Mess. etc etc......but it is still a beautiful thing rite? Well, at least it is to me. This is the part where people will say "You're not married yet, so you can say that, wait till you already are and you'll see!"

I have a dream of having a family of my own and I'll be a full time housewife. I'll devoted my time for my family. Owh sweet! Maknanya, I'll find someone rich, so that I don't have to work!

What? I'm studying hard enough now just to end up being a housewife? Don't worry, it is still too early to know what will happen in the future. It's just a plan.

It's just a dream of mine. To prepare breakfast for them in the morning, sent them to school. Wait for my husband to come home. Help my kids with their school works. Tuck them in at night. And gardening together on the weekend. We'll have a nice house with a beautiful garden. That's perfect! Not to mention the fish pond. I like that too.

Told you I'm a typical girl. Outdated. So last century. Name it. It's me. And I'm happy in my world.

The girl

In life, there's always times when you feel down, giving up and just don't wanna think about anything. I guess it is normal. Sometimes, I hope that people can understand me better, can read my mind and my heart so that they will not misunderstood me. Hope is such a big word for me. Since I was a little girl, hope is the burden I've been carried around with me until now. Failure is my enemy, in whatever I do, I must be among the best. It is like a repeated tape playing in my head over and over again.

But sometimes, at a time, it is just too much. If I fail, let me fail. I'll fight back. I'm not a loser. I don't give up. That's what I've been trained all this while. The only thing that can stop me moving forward is myself. It's hard to struggle with yourself everyday. It's like a fight that sometimes tired me and makes me feel that everything is just so worthless. I hope you'll understand what I feel, the burden in me, the pressure I've been holding all this while.

I'll finish what I started but please understand me. I'll decide for myself what I'll do in the future. It's time for me to take the responsibilities for what I did. Maybe I'm wrong but let me learn from my mistakes, it's a part of my journey of growing up. I might not be the best but I know that giving up is not gonna solve anything. I will not and I'll move forward.

You'll be proud, I promise you that but in the meantime let me be the 22 years old girl I always want to be. This girl of yours will not let you down. Trust me.

Friday, December 17, 2010


Nad, curi dari blog u. Hehe...dont mind eh.

Instruction :
Once you are tagged , answer all the questions honestly . No lying or cheating :D

Starting time : 13.58 pm

Name : Nur Hazwani Mohammad Azam

Brother(s) : 2 lil brothers. One in high school, another 1 in uni.

Eye colour : dark brown under d sun.

Shoe size : perlu kah? teet!

Hair : somewhere in d middle

Piercings : yes. kat telinga time kecik2 dlu.

What are you wearing right now : slack, t-shirt karate club, tudung

Where do you live : As a student: shah alam, family: alor star

Favourite number : 5, 7, and 23

Favourite drink : sky juice.

Favourite breakfast : toast and half-boiled egg.


Broken a bone : nope

Been in a police car : dad amik kat shah alam bwk blk alor star ngan kete keje dia.

Fallen for a friend : yes!

Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time : urm.yes!

Swam in the ocean : tak blajar g berenang

Fallen asleep in school : jarang

Broken someone's heart : yes. and i'm really sorry.

Cried when someone died : depends on who died i guess

Save e-mails : sometimes

Been cheated on : urm....yup!


Your room look like : umah sewa: messy ngan journal berlambak2. home sweet home: messy jgk tp i like the room color!

What is right beside you : kerusi si suraya

What is the last thing you ate : chicken koktel


Who did you last yell at? : mai, eza n erin. sbb menang main uno!

Who was the last person you danced with? : dancing? never...

Who last made you smile : takuya kimura.


What are you listening to right now? : the sound of the fan. and it's raining. it's cold.

What did you do today? : surfing, blogging, watching drama and supposedly, repair my proposal.

Are you the oldest : exactly! i always want an older brother.

Indoors or outdoors : both


Talk to someone you like? : no

Kiss anyone? : in dream, yes. real life, no.

Sing? : yup. lagu xtau la sebutannya cena.

Talk to an ex? : no

Miss someone : always

Eat? : yup. everyday pun mkn what.


You talked to on the phone? : eza

Made you cry? : takuya kimura jgk.

You went to the mall with? : eza

Who cheered you up? : myself. i'm highly motivated.


Been to Mexico? : no

Been to USA? : no


Have a crush on someone : used to. but we're history.

What books are you reading right now? : categorical data analysis by alan agresti. buku statistik dowh! pening...

Best feeling in the world : out with him!

Future kids name? : girl : dah tak igt. mybe. alya or hani. ntah.

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? : you mean bubub and bear? yes. normally when i wake up, dorang dh jauh kna tendang.

What's under your bed? : i tdor atas lantai je.

Favourite sport(s) : karate? ohoo....rony!

Favourite place : home sweet home. and korea!

Who do you really hate? : someone. cant mention any names here.

Do you have a job? : if u consider being student is a work, then yes, i have a job.

What time is it now? : 2.15 pm

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

My notes of the day

Notes for the day:

1- Lecturers are exactly like us when they present their work, they have blank mind sometimes even the one with PhD and years of experience! That's normal...=))

2- Students under the same particular lecturer, does present the same exact ways everytime. It's like watching the same advertisement over and over again. The bored one to be precise, is it a norm or skill that they have?!!

3- I always have a thing for tall and fair guys. They sometimes tend to look a lil bit girlish but who cares! They're super cute and good looking especially the ones with spectacles and highly educated. The way they talk and the overflowing charisma is just so tempting! I got my eyes on someone..wink2~~

4- I guess that there's no way escape once you're in the academic area, research is just simply your best friend whether you like it or not. Yes, I love research!

5- It's easy to pay attention when there's a good looking guy explaining things and it makes you feel motivated also!

Ah, I'm just a typical girl anyway. I love things people normally love, nothing much. Maybe the only thing different is, I like lemon! No sugar please....ok, that's a crap.

Sunday, December 12, 2010


Nanad is crazy with Ashraf Muslim!

Who doesn't?

I believe he will like your cupcakes

And skittles too!

I'm over excited plak...

Me? I like.....hmmmm

Mr. A was there, maybe I'll be waiting for Mr. B?

Or perhaps not, let's go with Mr. H instead

We have the same initial!

Yeah right Wanie...=P

You're my lucky number 23!

Sometimes it just amazing when you met someone with much similarities with you

When it is a super good looking guy

You will start to think....

Maybe we are fated to be together

Hahaha!! Nope!!

It just a coincidence

Things like that happens in life you know

Just something that makes you smile for a day!

Suddenly, I love number 23 bleh?

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Biology...genetic huh?

Come to think of it, I guess no matter how I think I hate study, doing research, reading journal, going to conference, that's what I'll end up doing for the rest of my life. I guess we never really know what's best for us, well it is for me. Seriously, I don't think I'll be going out from academic field no matter what. Unless I decided to be a full time housewife, which maybe I'll consider when I be a millionaire cause I don't wanna have a hard life if, I said if, doesn't mean I want it to happen which is divorce.

I guess I want to keep studying, maybe on different field. Biology and chemistry used to be my passion but since I'm no longer in a science stream, it just been forgotten. Maybe I can take up a degree on new course, biology or chemistry. Back on my first dream on becoming on....on...on what? I can't really remember but it has something to do with science. Maybe genetics, DNA is what I first read when I'm a little girl and even though I can't really understand it but I like it. Who knows what will happen in the future right? Who says that you can only stay in one stream, I'm maybe done my masters in agriculture marketing and economics but I know I can do well in biology as well. I should do it, right? Learning doesn't have limit, as long as you want to do it, you can.

Maybe there will be times when I find it hard but I don't think I regret it. I won't think about it anymore. Cause if I do, maybe I'll take it back. So just do it Wanie! Tapi wait another one and a half year, finish what you started first!

Never ever underestimate the power of your brain, we never used more than 2% of it anyways. Surely this brain of mine can do something spectacular! Ok, at least out of ordinary pun dah kira bagus. Haha....!

P/S: I got a new title for the research and I guess I can make it this time! Positively sure! My brain said so.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Superwoman vs Wonderwoman

Macam mana agaknya orang perempuan yang dah kawen, ada anak, sambil tu belajar wat Master and PhD? Banyak jugak yang aku dengar, boleh abis on time, cemerlang gemilang terbilang la pendek kata. Padahal ibarat kata member aku, memang rasa tak cukup je 24 jam ni! Tapi memang aku tabik la pada isteri2 dan ibu2 ni, memang superwoman! Lelaki sekalian, tolong ambik perhatian k.....kalo lelaki lain sikit kot, yelah, anak2 kecik bini yang handle, keje umah pun selalunya bini gak yang buat, mak mertua takde byk demand sgt kalo ngan menantu lelaki ni, so kalo belajar pun maybe tak sesusah yang perempuan kot....(kot la, aku pun xsure sgt).

Teringin nak tau sebenarnya cena dorang manage semua tu. Yang aku penah dengar citer, time siang bila anak2 dah bangun mmg tak boleh pegang thesis langsung, memang jadi fulltime housewife siapkan anak2, nak kemas umah, masak, bila malam semua dah tidor baru la boleh wat keje. Memang restricted la compare ngan kami2 ni yang ehem2, single. Agaknya bila dah jadi isteri and ibu je kot baru paham macam mana. Tapi utk my mother pun, even tak sambung belajar, tapi you still a superwoman! Love ya!!

So to all single ladies out there, not Mrs. yet and you're continuing your study, think bout it. Maybe we should get married first! Joking......manage your time properly people. 24 hours a day is not enough is not an acceptable excuse! Single ladies are more like wonder woman dari superwoman sebab asyik, at least. Or maybe we should go with wonder girls?!!

Patut la research tak jalan, asyik duk nobody je! Patutnya nak jadi somebody....ceh!

Friday, December 3, 2010

It's my day!

Convocation is over. Dah abis benda yang ditunggu selama ni. For that few seconds on the stage, your moment where people look at you and you're officially graduates, it takes years of hard work. I hope my lil sis and bro learn a lot and take it as a motivator for them. I want to go to your convo too k!

Things get a lil bit chaotic that time. Imagine la when you have 1181 graduates at the same time, times ngan berapa org family member yang datang, plus hujan lebat, so yeah, I guess you guys get the picture. Sadly my bestie Sarah is not with me but it's ok, finally we still grad at the same time even not at the same place. To meet my former classmates especially ex-housemate where I spent 2 years of my degree years with them, we study together, we laugh and shed tears together and finally we make it. My success is not only my effort but them too. It's a gift not only for me but to you guys too! Thanx a lot!

To my parents for believing in me all dis moments. For all the times, money and pray from you guys to me. This is what I can give to you. The best present I could ever think of. Mum, dad....I love you guys so much, and this is for you.

UiTM, Universiti Teknologi Mara, ITM, whatever you wanna call it, I'm proud to be one of the alumni. Thank you so much to all my dear lecturers and my beloved university. The best in my heart indeed! UiTM dihatiku!!!