Monday, November 28, 2011

marriage at 23? me?

It was kinda tension for me when I open my fb page and seeing all the congratulatory status and pics of my friends, mainly my high school mates on their engagement or wedding day. I mean, we're just 23, no? Is it me who are already too late to get married or those ppl getting married too early? My mum married when she was 23 years old, and that was 23 years ago! Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for them. It's just that they make me feel like I'm supposed to get married now too. Like I'm on the prime age of getting married. I'm planning to do that, earliest will be 26, latest will definitely before 30. But still, I'm only gonna finish my study when I'm 28, and that's like 5 years from now. But again, it just my planning. If it written I would get married next month, then I will.

You know what, I think the reason is I'm not ready for this kind of commitment just yet. I heard somewhere that among the reason why your 'jodoh' is late is because you, yourself are not ready. And maybe all of my other friends are ready for the responsibility. So, stop complaining about it Wanie! Just focus on your study and remember your goal!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

I don't really know what makes me happy in this world.
Sometimes, things feel so real, at one moment it feel so fake.
Things that feel so rite can be so wrong.
I have no idea what I want, waking up staring at the ceiling wondering what should I do every single day.
I should get myself straight but I just don't know how.