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Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Merdeka!

Salam and hi.

Since hari ni merdeka, so every post yang aku tgk pun pasal merdeka. Nak wish jugak la, Happy 53rd Independence Day to our beloved Malaysia! Hopefully we will have a prosperous years ahead!!!

To my friends who celebrated their birthday today, Happy birthday guys! And yes, happy birthday to you too mr. past memories who I try so very hard to let go, have a wonderful years always and just be happy.

Happy merdeka to my thought of you....I'm more than happy now. Thanx.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Alone

Not planning to go back
Sick and tired of everything
and I stood there emotionless
Because I'm sick of myself
Pretending like I'm ok
Still smiling, faking it
I want to be with myself alone
where I don't have to face anything
I don't wanna hurt
and be hurt
So, just let me be
You'll never understand what I felt
but since I'm a friend
Let me swallow it and forget everything
And go back
That's what friend for
To accept all the bitterness of friendship
And forget about it
Only keep the happy moments
I'll do that
In a moment
Coz I need to find that friend-self in me

Sweet 17 dear sister!

Selamat hari lahir ke-17! Tak sangka pejam celik dah 17 dah adik aku yang sorang ni. Dah besar panjang, anak dara ni tapi aku tak penah rasa dia cam 17 tahun, mungkin sebab perangai terikut2 yang bongsu tu. Tulis kat cni pun bukannya dia boleh baca, tapi takpe la, sekadar mengingati pe yang perlu. Akak selalu doakan yang terbaik utk korang semua, moga2 jadi anak yang berguna la k! And wat yang terbaik utk SPM nnt. Hadiah? Hmmm.....tgk la cena...=))

Birthday girl in pink

And once again, I'm here alone at my beloved ex-faculty, continue to force and striving to finish my proposal not to mention to make it as best as I can in this short time. Kenapa alone? Itu lebih baik bila perlu ilham utk menulis. Tulis proposal pun kena ada ilham, baru flow ayat tu power. Hehe!

Sometimes, I prefer to be alone even though I'm not a lone ranger type of person. I love when there's many people with me, hate it when I'm being left alone but lately, I find my peace when I'm alone. Doing my things on my own. It is quite enjoyable I must say. Truth is, I'm not ok. My peace is not at home, but tense are. So, to stop the tense from annoys me, I decided to go out, far from everything.

There's only me, my song and my never ending proposal writing. This is my life.

Friday, August 27, 2010

giving up? I don't think so...

Hi and salam.

Sitting here alone in my beloved ex-faculty (since I've changed my faculty recently) with the coldness from the rain just now, it's relaxing. Suddenly, my mind become clearer and all the problems that haunt me lately seems to have an answer after all. Just a little push to boost up my spirit and I know I can do it, I always do.

I'm someone who work better in tense since that it push me forward and forcing my brain to find a solution, a good one of course. Now, I have tonnes of reading, highlighting and critical thinking to do but I don't feel like I'm in mess and I have a good feeling that I can finish it on time and satisfy my supervisor with it. This is good, at least I can write my best and prepare myself for the defense of proposal after Raya.

Now, I'm full of spirit and positive thinking. That's how everything works out for me! And giving up is a big no for me.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

give up or give it all?

Salam.

Terasa malas nak melangkah ke mana-mana, malas nak berjumpa dengan orang yang sepatutnya tapi perlu, dan sangat2 penting, jadi terpaksa memaksakan diri melangkah pergi. Haih. Penat memikirkan bnda yang sama setiap hari. Macam mana nak jadikan idup student ni gembira? Seems impossible sekarang.

Give up? Dah terlalu banyak kali aku fikirkan bnda yang sama. Dan terlampau tepu otak aku dengan perkataan dan niat utk mengalah. Tapi, tak pernah berani untuk mengalah, sebabnya? First, sekali aku dah melangkah, ini mmg takdir aku, teruskan walau macam mana susah sekalipun. Kedua, memikirkan orang tua di rumah, terbatal niat untuk mengalah, dan terus menggagahkan diri.

Apa erti gembira sebenarnya? Persepsi aku tentang gembira sangat melalaikan sebenarnya. Bersantai2 setiap hari, bangun lambat, bangun dengan senyuman sebab takde yg perlu difikirkan, tgk cerita, tgk wayang, pergi karoke, pendek kata, bersenang lenang la. Huh. Memang la susah cmtu. Hidup, biar apa pun yang aku buat sekarang, semuanya ada tanggungjawab, peranan yg perlu dimainkan dengan jayanya. Peranan aku sebagai pelajar, menyiapkan apa yang perlu, melalui apa yang harus dan wajib....akhirnya, kejayaan itu bukan milik orang lain, tapi diri sendiri jugak.

Kenapa ayat aku jadi camni? Entah.....malas nak fikirkan jawapannya. Dan sekarang, meja ni penuh dengan jurnal2 yang belum betul2 difahami. Mengeluh lagi. Dari mengeluh, baik start reading and finish it by the time given. But I'm sleepy.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Argh!!!!!!

Penyakit malas dah menjelma balik, ntah la, malas rasanya nak membaca research2 yang banyak ni. When time like this come, I started to doubt my decision bout continue my study. Haih! Apasal la malas sgt ni Wanie! Pick yourself up and just do what you need to do. I have to, really really have to do this. Kalo tak, xberaya la aku tahun ni. Tak abih2 cita isu yang sama kat sini, tak tau la bila masanya rajin tu nak datang and stay lama. Penat!

Plan esok....meet up with the supervisor, pastu sambung tgk You're Beautiful, hehe~ Update terbaru, baru baca emel tadi yg kena antar proposal for defense nnt by 1st September. Mati la aku! Cena neh? Mna da idea nak wat questionnaire, cena nak antar. Adeh! Pening plus sakit pala!

Prof, cena ni?!!! OMG......I'll be extremely busy until 1st September.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Thank you for being you

I didn’t know I was going to tell you like this
No words were enough
I couldn’t say anything
I was so thankful
I didn’t know what to do

Why do you like me
Why do you choose me among so many people
What I could do for you is so lacking
So I made this song for you

So I thank you
and I love you

I wasn’t able to do anything for you,
But you just keep on giving without stopping
Because of the love you gave me,
I’m standing here like this

I know how difficult it is
to live while loving me

But you keep standing in that place
without any change
Just for me

Why don’t you turn around
It must be so tiring for you, why do keep loving me
I didn’t know how to repay you again
So I made this song


That heart of yours,
The tears you cried,
All that, I won’t forget it.

So I thank you
And I love you


Did I ever regret loving you and do all the things I did only for you? There's no way I will feel that. To see you there standing so happily, that made my day and nothing, until the end that I would ever stop loving you and only you, the one I chose among so many people. And I love you too!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Wish list!

Kadang2 aku rasa lawak pun ada bila teringat pasal diri sendiri. Aku rasa aku ni pelik, pelik ke? Ntah, maybe la kot. Artis kegilaan sekarang..nak tgk?


Ha, ni la buah hati pengarang jantung aku sekarang, 2PM! Kompem2 la artis korea kan cik kak. Mesti org kata, ala perempuan, pantang nampak artis2 korea hensem cket, suma nak minat. Ai, suka ati la, yang ko nak sibok2 pehal plak, tak minat sudah! Minat sbb pa? Mula2 mmg terberkenan kat artis dia la kan, standard r tu, pastu baru dgr lagu, bleh tahan, aku suka! Tapi dalam byk2 artis korea lelaki, tak kira la solo ka band ka, aku leh minat sgt2 yg ni ngan FT Island je (bukan pulau faizal tahir ye nini). Y? Ntah, even ada lagi byk group2 korea yg artis dia lagi hensem and comei tapi takde chemistry ngan group len cam yang ni. Cewah! Poyo je aku ni cakap.....~


So, aku dah berangan2 sejak dgr cerita maybe dorang nak dtg Msia next year, yang aku nak g tgk konsert dorang walau berapa pun harga tiket tu nnt. Nak bagi present ape ek? Nnt kalo ada autographed session nak sain cd yg mna satu? Nak ckp pe bila jmpa? Angan2 tol Wanie! Nama pun fans kan.....janji aku bahagia ngan dorang and tak kaco org lain, ye x?




Yang lawaknya, aku pya genre favourite lagu mmg sgt2 la universal. Dari artis jiwang karat tahap dewa mmg meleleh pya sampai la tahap hardcore metal pya lagu pun aku layan. Aku pelik gak tgk aku ni. Cakap je lagu ape, penyanyi mana, melayu, cina, korea, jepun, omputih, hindustan, sepanyol, suma aku bedal ja janji aku suka. Cam lawak ja bila teringat yg aku suka lagu2 Avenged Sevenfold, tapi bleh g nak nyanyi hindustan. Haha, lawak tol aku neh! Cakap je ape, kuch kuch hota hai, mohabbatein, dilwale dulhania le jayenge, suma cek layan ja. Bak kata ayah aku, aku ni pendengar universal!


p/s: dah dapat idea nak bg present apa kat khun ngan taec ni nnt....hehe~

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Heaven!

Owh heaven gila duk kat umah ni! tiap2 ari leh bangun lambat, tak payah nak pkir nak kena wat keje, nak kena g keje, nak bukak posa makan ape, hoho...tapi kena gak blk shah alam, kampung kedua aku tu. Dah rehat sedap2, tiba masa nak kena balik wat keja cam besa.

Well, tak leh nak watpe la kan, byk keje menanti, defense of proposal plak pas raya, cena nak bagi setel pun tak tau la. Juz wait and see la kan. Hopefully everything ok! Rindu plak budak2 kat tuisyen tu, xpe2 esok kita jumpa ye wahai semua bdk2 kesayangan aku! Hehe! Hairi? Nizam? Haha....tak rindu langsung pun..~

Duk umah, heaven! Takde bnda nak citer....daa~

Friday, August 13, 2010

salam perkenalan to my new friend~

Hari ketiga berpuasa....seems ok, everything is on the track, nothing much, nothing extraordinary, just me and my study, my life and my part time work. I love my life now even more. Reading someone's journey in life makes me feel that I didn't thank enough in life, I didn't appreciate enough and didn't love enough. I have the best in everything. So what if you don't have a chance to study abroad? So what if you never been offered to medic? That problem is really nothing compared to this girl.

Aku bukan nak simpati dengan dia cuma aku rasa there's a lot I can learn from her. We're the same age but we're different. The way she views life, her life full of sadness, tears but she found her strength somehow. Sincerely, I hope I can be someone who can help her, to at least if I can't do anything, I can listen, hear what she wants to say, being a friend. Maybe I knew her from cyberspace, I barely knew her but I feel that we can be friend.

To mum and dad, I love you guys so much! Even though you guys always quarrel on the even simplest thing, nonsense things but you guys love each other so much and thank you for doing everything for us. To my brothers and sisters, I love you guys too.

Wanie, keep working hard!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Ramadhan datang lagi!

Dah lama tak update blog ni, rasanya cam byk je cerita nak bgtau tapi xpe la. Ni dah 1 Ramadhan, jadi kena buang benda2 tak elok tu. Kalo tak boleh buang tu ssh la kan, sbb bln ni semua syaitan2 dah kena ikat, jadi kalo jahat jugak tu mmg berjaya la syaitan tu train kita selama ni ye. Renung2kan dan selamat beramal!

Hehe...ok first story, housemate aku merangkap salah sorang bestie aku, dah blk kampung mlm tadi. Posa kat umah...waa! Aku pun nak blk kedah jugak! Tapi takpe, turn aku sampai tak lama lagi. Minggu dpn, the whole week aku cuti bersama keluarga. Sedih dowh, dah la kat umah sewa shah alam ni roomate ramai yang blk, yg ada pun non-Muslim. Tapi takpe, org kata dugaan semua tu. So ari ni, bkk posa pun aku tak terasa nak pergi bazar ramadan, nak masak pun mls, jwbnya bkk ngan megi je la ye Wanie.

Arini cuti. Tak keje kat kedai fotostat, dh gtau ngan bos tapi kena duk library sampai petang sbb nak repair proposal yang prof baru tanda aritu. Kalo tak amik cuti, mmg tak jalan la proposal tu, kompem! Tetiba aku rasa diri ni berwibawa la plak, ye lah, tiap2 ari kul 8 je dah ade kat fakulti ni. Tiap2 ari k, bukan satu dua ari je! Dulu time degree pun xde camni. Hahaha....poyo tul aku ni. Sebenarnya sbb nak cari parking, xnk jalan jauh2, sbb tu kna bgn awal. Bulan posa ni lagi senang la gamaknya.

Akhirnya, professor oversea pakar branding tu reply gak emel aku, siap attachkan dia pya research journal yang aku mintak tu. Thanx ye prof byk2, nnt dtg M'sia saya belanja nasi lemak. Hehe...makan ke?

K la, penat dah aku menaip kat blog ni. Nak baca paper plak, update general knowledge la katakan..hehe....

Daa~~

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Happy Birthday sis!



Happy birthday to my dearest little sister, ari 5hb, genap la 11 tahun kan dik....being the youngest in the family, jadi perangai tu kdg2 mengada sampai over the top la jgk. Hehehe....tapi my mum said she look and behave a lot like I did, well, dat's a good news mum, u'll have another nice daughter! Haha....



K la, akak wish u a very happy birthday and miss you! Jangan wat mak tu pening pale ngan perangai ko dik, hehe.....

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Hardcore dedicated fans~

Lama rasanya tak update blog ni, bkn ape, xde idea nak tulis apa, plus broadband yang mmg cam beruk, jadi masuk kampus baru bleh berbelog ni sambil membaca2, belog2 org lain. Org duk library stadi, aku, hehe....tiap2 ari datang library, siap tercangak kat depan library tunggu pakcik library tu bagi aku masuk. Gila dowh, best student r aku kali ni!

Sebenarnya datang awal sbb takut takde parking, pastu bosan xde tempat nak lepak. Beli la paper, tnggu library bukak then, bukak laptop on9.....dah penat, blk. Hohoho, best student la sgt aku ni. Anyway, kesian semalam budak2 aku kena tengking sebab Kak Ju (owner pusat tuisyen) cakap, suh expalain kat semua bdk2, tengking je, jangan takut sbb dorang ni gila hardcore pya bdk, muka selamba, tak makan saman, suke main2, jadi aku cuma menjalankan tugas je la kan.

Tapi tengking tu xde la melampau sgt, suruh dorang diam, pandang depan je. Pastu duk ngan dorang explain slow2, lembut2, tanya byk kali pun cikgu ni tak marah, xpe, sbb awak xphm kn. Cikgu ni xde kuasa la nak marah2 korang, penat tau x. Tapi jgn la main2, dengar bila orang ajar. Tak paham bleh tya, jgn bising. 20 kali awak tya pun, cikgu ni cakap lembut2 lagi.

Aku kat tuisyen tu mmg diberi tugas mem'brush'kan budak2 hardcore yang mmg memerlukan kesabaran yang tinggi disamping kebolehan menerang sesimple yang mungkin, plus kena tegas. Tapi setakat ni, aku enjoy keje situ walaupun penat.

K la, kena g keje kedai fotostat plak. Cari rezeki dowh! Bye!