Monday, February 27, 2012

When was the last time I wrote in this blog? I can't remember it myself. Lots and lots of things had happened. There's fight between me and my bestie and we're still didn't talk to each other. I miss her for sure abut I don't wanna disappoint her ever again, thus it will be better for me to stay away. It seems like there's more person walk out of my life rather than the one coming in. No one to blame, maybe it's me.

I still unable to find the courage to meet up with him. I keep thinking bout him, every single thing remind me of him and I think one of my student resembles him a lot! I know that these kind of thing takes time and everything is fated but I don't think I'm strong enough to face it and not let myself immersed in my own emotions. Yes, he's the one still in my heart. I pray that I'm able to accept it if he's not meant for me.

Life is like this. Sometimes you're happy, sometimes something terrible happened. It's still hard for me to face it everyday. I can only write it here.