human that'll never satisfied with anything

This can be considered as ungrateful, since we all are called plain human, this is normal. I'm jealous of students who have to study and now struggling very hard for their final examination. Not bragging bout doesn't have to take any examination but once I left the time where I'm a student who always need to take examination, I kinda miss the feeling of struggling hard, scanning through the notes, past years exam paper, all the quizzes, discussing seriously each of the past year question, it's tiring but the satisfaction is there. I don't know if I'm weird but I really miss that.

People will think that it's so much fun when you don't have to attend any classes or take any examination so you can relax. yeah, right! I've tried it and I tell you, it's not fun especially for person who can't really straighten up their lives like me. Things that look fun at first, will not be exactly as what you expected.

When I was young, and rebellious teenager, I always wanted to study far away from home so that I can have freedom. What's more fun than freedom?!! Being able to live your life the way you want it and can be far away from your nagging parents and annoying siblings, it's heaven for god sake! Now, I realise that it does feel good for a moment but at last you begin to understand that there's no place like home. Home is where you have to listen to your parents babbling, put up with your crazy siblings but in the end, eat dinner happily together and laugh. Together with people who really cares about you, know you inside and out and accept you the way you are, that's family!

I haven't felt that quite a long time now. I miss my years as degree students struggling like crazy for examination and I miss my family very much. But my research restricts me from being where my heart wants to be. Mum, dad...I want to be with you but I can't. I'll hang on over here, I'll be back soon.

To all other students especially UiTM students who will undertake the final examination, I wish you all the best! And yes, appreciate every moment of it. Good luck!

for you my dear sister

Bila time result SPM keluar je, teringat zaman dulu-dulu time amik result. Berdebar, cuak, semua ada la, tak payah cakap. Malam takleh tidor, esok plak rasa cam jalan tak pijak tanah je bila masuk pintu gate sekolah. Semua tu kenangan manis. Happy jumpa kawan-kawan, tengok result, call orang, jumpa cikgu, tahniah itu, tahniah ini.....such a happy memory of school years. Sedar tak sedar, dah 6 tahun berlalu. Time flies. For my sister yang amik result today, whatever happen, I still love you as my sister. You might not be as bright as others but I want you to know that I'm always proud of you. Future is ahead, do what you love and I'll keep supporting you. Love you, sis!

policeman of my heart...I heart you!

Happy 49th birthday dad! You're the best I could ever ask for. Sometimes I think you didn't treat me like your 23 years old daughter but more like a 5 years old, but anyway, I like it. Being an adult is tiresome, I love being me when I'm with you.

Dad,
If I can ask for something, I'll ask a better daughter for you. I'm not the best one, and probably can never be one. But I'll promise with you, no matter what, I'll always be with you throughout my life. I remember the day I kissed your cheek before I went to sleep, I remember the day you told me that no matter hard it is, I am your priority. I remember the day your hands glide through my hair and wipe away the tears, and promise me nothing bad will happen.

Dad,
I know you're not reading this but I still want to tell you how much you means to me and I love you from the day I was born until the end. There's only one king in my heart, and it's you. Thank you for being you. No words are enough to describe you, no tears are enough to show how much I miss you and love you. This is the very least I can do for you.

One thing that I scared the most is the day I break your heart with my words or my action. I pray that day will never come and let me bear in my heart and my mind of existence of such figure in my life. A father.


Let the whole world knows that I have you. The policeman of my heart! Forever....

p/s: I always think that the reason you never had a chance to be rich is because of me. Sorry dad! Heee....

Miss them!

I miss my mum! My dad! My lil sisters and brother of course. I miss the times I went home and hugs her and kissed her a lot. I guess I tend to forget that she's a big girl now. To me she's always my little sister, always adik! Haih....wat to do? There's a lot of stuff going on, I can't go home now. I miss them so very much.

Raya time!

Selamat hari raya! It's not too late g kan nak wish raya...Nway, I'm still at Ipoh, celebrating raya ngan family belah my father, ramai giler, maklumlah orang adik beradik ramai, and my dad plak yang bongsu so ramai la sepupu sepapat, anak2 buah yang dah lost count bape org. Kalo skip setahun, mau tak igt dorang sume ni, ye lah, dah tiap2 tahun bertambah je anak sedaranya...hehe.

Mmg fevret aku le kalo blk Ipoh ni, makan giler sedap2, asal datang umah sape2 je kompem balik kenyang. Duit raya pun byk sbb kitorang ni antara cousin yang plg muda so yang dah berkerjaya tu lagi ramai la tapi sedihnya dis year, duit raya aku mmg byk dah kena potong. Dah semua bising kat aku, "Kamu ni bilanya nak abih blajor? Tak boleh nak potong nama lg dari list neh, asyik bersambung2 je blajor, bila aku nak merasa duit raya kamu plak?" Haha!

Hoho..pakcik2 dan makcik2 ku sayang, udoh teman ni mmg suke bebenor blajor, xsanggup rasanya nak berenti. Ceh! Sebenornya muda lagi, baru 22, dah nak merasa gaji plg cket pun belas2 ribu, bior ler teman ni belajor tinggi2 dlu, ha lpas ni blajor sampai dapat doktor ler gayanya, professor ler katakan. Hahaha....tinggi benor citer2nye. Nnt I dah gaji belas2 ribu, aku bagi duit raya tiap2 bulan...ha, amacam? Mmg pemurah btol aku ni...kih3.....doa2 la ye~~

K la, penat meraban mlm2 ni, ckup ler tu. Nnt plak ye.....presentation proposal 23hb ni, fuhh!!!! Jampi2 la moga panel2 tu tak suh aku present blk, luluskan ler tajuk mike ni ye...

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Sweet 17 dear sister!

Selamat hari lahir ke-17! Tak sangka pejam celik dah 17 dah adik aku yang sorang ni. Dah besar panjang, anak dara ni tapi aku tak penah rasa dia cam 17 tahun, mungkin sebab perangai terikut2 yang bongsu tu. Tulis kat cni pun bukannya dia boleh baca, tapi takpe la, sekadar mengingati pe yang perlu. Akak selalu doakan yang terbaik utk korang semua, moga2 jadi anak yang berguna la k! And wat yang terbaik utk SPM nnt. Hadiah? Hmmm.....tgk la cena...=))

Birthday girl in pink

And once again, I'm here alone at my beloved ex-faculty, continue to force and striving to finish my proposal not to mention to make it as best as I can in this short time. Kenapa alone? Itu lebih baik bila perlu ilham utk menulis. Tulis proposal pun kena ada ilham, baru flow ayat tu power. Hehe!

Sometimes, I prefer to be alone even though I'm not a lone ranger type of person. I love when there's many people with me, hate it when I'm being left alone but lately, I find my peace when I'm alone. Doing my things on my own. It is quite enjoyable I must say. Truth is, I'm not ok. My peace is not at home, but tense are. So, to stop the tense from annoys me, I decided to go out, far from everything.

There's only me, my song and my never ending proposal writing. This is my life.

Heaven!

Owh heaven gila duk kat umah ni! tiap2 ari leh bangun lambat, tak payah nak pkir nak kena wat keje, nak kena g keje, nak bukak posa makan ape, hoho...tapi kena gak blk shah alam, kampung kedua aku tu. Dah rehat sedap2, tiba masa nak kena balik wat keja cam besa.

Well, tak leh nak watpe la kan, byk keje menanti, defense of proposal plak pas raya, cena nak bagi setel pun tak tau la. Juz wait and see la kan. Hopefully everything ok! Rindu plak budak2 kat tuisyen tu, xpe2 esok kita jumpa ye wahai semua bdk2 kesayangan aku! Hehe! Hairi? Nizam? Haha....tak rindu langsung pun..~

Duk umah, heaven! Takde bnda nak citer....daa~

Happy Birthday sis!

Happy birthday to my dearest little sister, ari 5hb, genap la 11 tahun kan dik....being the youngest in the family, jadi perangai tu kdg2 mengada sampai over the top la jgk. Hehehe....tapi my mum said she look and behave a lot like I did, well, dat's a good news mum, u'll have another nice daughter! Haha....



K la, akak wish u a very happy birthday and miss you! Jangan wat mak tu pening pale ngan perangai ko dik, hehe.....

One of the happiest day in my life!

Well I guess some of the UiTM students are really2 pissed off with the system. They should because the system is terrible, don't want to say the S thing. But I've got mine already, patience pay well people. Just keep trying, you'll get it.

Ok, first of all, I'm officially will continue my study next semester. I choose to continue master first, it's better and give me more solid foundation if I want to continue my PhD. Kalau ada rezeki, ade la kan. One thing at a time. Patience is a good virtue.

Ever heard of delayed gratification? It's in CLEO dis month. It's true I guess. Learn to be patient and you'll feel more satisfied than ever. Talking from experience I would say.

About my result, how would it be? Hmm....well let just said that I did my best and it pay well. Mum and dad, this one is for you. I want you guys to be the proudest parents on my convocation day. And to all my friends, thank you for all the support and love. This one is for you guys also.

Haneul!

Baru je smpai dr umah aku kul 5 lebih tadi, trus kena g cyberjaya plak. Ngan hari yg panas giler, ngantuk, penat...semua la ade. Tapi bahagia sbb bleh blk umah, tgk umah aku yg makin cantek sbb renovate. Tdor dlm blk sndiri yg dah ade air-cond! Thanks mummy sbb menunaikan hasrat di hati ni sbb M'sia ni dh panas giler. Blk kaler purple gitu! Huh...bahagia dowh~

Blk cni, mule la terasa beban macam2 bnda. Assignment yg berlambak2, test, quiz, presentation...adeh! Malas pkir...nak abih blajar jerk cpat2. Pastu ape nak jadi seterusnya, nnt la pkir k! Dah la...mls nk citer g, daa~

sorry

Tak sedap ati la, ni yang aku palig benci ni....

Gaduh ngan my mum, bukan gaduh sebenarnya tapi dia marah ngan aku sebab kol tak angkat, pastu anak bertuah ni xreti nak kol balik.

Adeh! Mummy, jgn la marah, I tak sengaja la. Lupa sangat2, hp pun lupa....

Gaduh kecik cmni pun aku rasa tak sedap ati sgt2 sampai la dia dah ok. Jadi, I've been wondering mcm mana ada anak yang sanggup gaduh ngan mak sebab lelaki, tinggalkan mak dorang kat umah orang tua2, maki hamun mak sendiri cam dalam tv tu. Tak rasa berdosa ke?

Mummy, sorry sangat2...jgn la marah dah~

So, nak call balik kna tunggu masa yg sesuai, harap2 by the time I called, she's cool down already. And yeah, I miss home, I  miss her.

what to say

hi all....

so hari ni nk citer pasal pe plak??? Idea anyone???

First aku rasa nk ckp pasal manusia. Siapakah manusia itu??? Semua la, aku, kau, kita, mereka, etc. Nk dijadikan cerita, semalam housemate aku ajak lepak kat tasik dekat ngan umah aku smbil makan domino. Jadi biasala, kalo dh lepak sambil mkn, pe lagi, kutuk orang la plak. Aku rasa biasa je kalo kita bercakap pasal org. Ade je salah org yg kita nmpak, semua xkena, itu salah, ini salah. Aku pun sama je kalo bab mengutuk org ni. Sebab dh terbiasa, de je la bnda xkena pada aku. Mungkin ade org yg tak mengata org lain...bgus la cmtu...tp aku tau lagi ramai yg macam aku, kan2??? Nak wat cmna, kita insan biasa, tp boleh kalo nk berubah. Aku?? Time will tell....

Sembang ngan housemate aku pasal sepupu masing2. Isu ni timbul sejak aku dapat tau ramai plak sepupu aku yg main facebook ni. Yelah, knape plak nk pelik kn, besa la tu. Jadi aku pun meng 'add' kn mereka2 ini semua. Mne yg aku knal dan aku jumpa la kn. Kadang2 aku terasa la betapa sebenarnya aku ni ada gap ngan sepupu2ku ini. Salah siapa?? Salah aku jugak yg agak susah nk berkomunikasi. Ape masalh sbnrnya? Aku rasa aku ni mmg xde skill berkomunikasi, sebab aku ni bkn la pendiam. Jauh sgt kot, cuma kalau aku tak biasa sembang ngan org tu, aku mg susah nk berckp melainkn terpaksa. Jadi wujud la gap yang tak sepatutnya ada. Padahal aku rasa sepupu2 aku ni baik2 je, takde pun bnde yg diorang buat aku rasa terasing sbb kitorang semua mmg sama. Semuanya cucu2 Abu Hanifah & Salmah, takde yg beza pun....

Satu lagi maybe sebab sepupu2 aku tu ramai yg dah kawen, dh keje, terasa aku ni tersangat la budak2. Aku tak ckp sepupu2 aku tu tua ok. So, aku mmg la sgt teringin nak mcm orang2 lain yg baik ngan sepupu, yelah bkn orang lain, family jugak kn. Nk jugak bila blk kampung, or gather ramai2 takde la rasa cm terasing je, padahal boleh je diorang tu nak bersembang ngan aku tp agaknya dh penat kot mencari topik nk sembang ngan aku. Biasa la, org tya sepatah, aku jawab sepatah, takde effort langsung nk sambung citer. Kalo aku memang la bosan kot asyik aku je nk start sembang pastu orgnye wat bodo je. Lepas ni nk kna blajar communication skills la plak...hehe...bukan utk sembang ngan sepupu2 je, tp berguna ilmu tu nanti. Almaklum la, belajar pun dh last semester, tak lama lg nk keje plak. Pastu kawen, pastu ade anak, pastu...oit, dh3...merapu plak.

kak yan

kak zura

kak na

kak lin

kak kin

abg din and his friends....look for family resemblance k...

abg azha

p/s: post ni dh lma nk publish tp sbb kebengongan tenet kat umah, jd skrang bru dpt publish..

hohoho....Merry Xmas

hi all....hohoho, what's that for???  Christmas is around the corner ppl~~!!!!

Christmas means my lil brothers birthday are coming up. I said lil brothers, both of my brothers will be celebrating their birthday soon. Amy atau nma sbnrnya, Helmi tp xreti aku nk pnggil helmi, bnyi skema siot punye...punye?? gediknye bunyinye tp lantakler birthday will be on Christmas Day, 25th Dec and Hafiz will be on 26th Dec. So there's no point to celebrate it separately. Hohoho.....guess that my lil brothers are not so little anymore. Amy will turn to 15 and Hafiz, 20. 20??? Omg...I'm old. Hee.....

My brothers, Amy ngan Hafiz. Ini gambar lama coz now Amy is so much thinner than in dis pic.

See....I tak tipu kan, he changed a lot nowadays, mybe sbb dh 15 years old kot....

Actually aku rindu mak ngan ayah aku...waaaa....dulu tgk hp, tgk2 ade miscall dr ayah aku. Call blk la....

Aku: Call ke tadi??? Ade kat bwh basuh baju, hp kat atas. Nape??

Dad: Xde pe pun. Saje je call.

Aku: Cakap je la rindu...keh3...... I miss you too la daddy. Owh, igtkn ade pape td.

Dad: Ade lg ke duit? (I love dis question)

Aku: Bkn la xde langsung tp kalo nk tambah tu sgt2 la dialu2kn. Lebih2 cket pun xpe... Anak bertuah btol aku ni, bkn nk tya sihat ke tidak.

My mum and my dad. Sangat gumbira nmpaknya mummy