Mum, I can cry now? I miss you, I miss the family. This been too hard lately, I can't find my strength to move on. It hurts, it's tiring. I wanna stop here. Everything seems different now, I don't belong here, this is not my place.

It hurts so much, I hate myself for being such a loser. Mum, I really need you to hug me now and tell me I can go through this period. I know I'm a big girl now but I need you always. I miss you. I shouldn't cry by my tears keep rolling down my cheek. I want to go 10 years back, but I can't.