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Friday, February 27, 2009

fall for you....

i'm scared of falling in love, to care bout someone....he makes me do that, slowly, since when...i dun noe...d question now can i keep allowing myself to care bout dis guy..what inside of him that makes me so interested in him, i love his smile, i just love looking at him...i wanna set a distance between us but i dun think i can do dat..u noe how it feels when the thing is soo close but yet it seems so hard 4 u to get it, dat's what i feel......his silence is killing me, he smile covers something, something dat he hide from me, d burden that he carries, i wanna share dat with him, to be beside him when he's in trouble but i can't do dat....dear god, if u listen to me, plz help him during dis period coz i can't be there 4 him, he needs somone and i need him...~

Saturday, February 21, 2009

truth....

you know what? the hardest thing sometimes is to say the truth, to tell the truth....i'm scared that i hurt my friends by doing that but i can't stand seeing what is wrong......it doesn't really matter whether the thing is small or big but what is right, is right but what is wrong never say right, well that is actually what my lecturer used to tell me, over and over.. i'm a very emotional influenced type of girl, i'm always blinded by my emotions but i need to say what i feel...maybe because i grow up in a discipline surrounding, and not forgetting that both my parents work in the police force, i always eager to tell the truth and i can't stand seeing injustice in front of me...sorry is the only thing i can say to my friends but i need to do what i need to, what happen is not right, at least i must take an effort to correct it.....

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

emotionally unstable...

if u ask me is there any person that i noe who is seriously emotionally unstable, my answer is yes and dat person is me!! i am a damn emotionally disturbed person, i get mad in a minute, but then i'm ok....i'm great...i get hurt easily actually, very sensetive kinda person, the one who will give you headache when my superficial mood come and blow everything and yes, i'm a crying baby...haha...i express my feelings well, i'm good at it..i dun noe how to fake my feelings and pretend dat evrthing is fine when it is not...i cry when i fight with my best fren, when my mum damn pissed off with me, even when i watch movies...one thing 4 sure, deep down inside this so called 'strong' person, i'm a sensitive person, extra sensitive to be precise...

Sunday, February 8, 2009

relationsHip...

is it worth to dedicate your life to someone who doesn't seem to understand you? i ask that question to myself and i guess my answer would be nope...but for some ppl it is not that simple to make such decision.. i talk to my best fren last nite when she told me bout what had happen and how she's so dissapointed with her partner...i noe dis guy from her, when she first told me that she's kinda close with him and he propose to her to be more than juz fren and unbelieavably she said 'yes'...i noe her and i said at first, dun attach urself with him, becoz it wouldn't last long but after some times, i think maybe she will prove me wrong and things can actually work well.. love ppl for who they are, that is d problem here...when you try to mould your partner back to d person you want her to be, conflict of interest will occur...be true to urself, the question here is do you really LOVE your partner and willing to accept him/her as they are? do you willing to tolerate and understand them? my advise, think before you act, dun regret it later coz 'there's nothing great bout being in a relationship, if you're not happy with it'